We told our families, our close friends, and basked in excitement at the thought of your arrival -- only to find out at our first ultrasound yesterday, that due to your large egg sack, small measurement and slow heartbeat -- you likely will not survive. I didn't know how to react at first. But now 24 hours later, it's crystal clear. I'm mourning the loss of you, my child. Your heartbeat is still beating in me but I know you will not survive. I'm so sorry I could not protect you. I love you and will always think of you.
Friday, December 5, 2014
Thursday, October 30, 2014
Baby #2 - I'm Pregnant!
Tues, Nov 4, 2014 at 7:15pm
Ok baby #2. I think you're starting to brew. We've been wanting you for a while now and I was worried you would take longer than I preferred. Funny... I was expecting you to come last month, or the month before and was absolutely convinced that you could not come this month... Alas, you have a mind of your own already and surprised your own mama.
Your daddy is in NYC right now, but he will be home tonight. I'm not sure yet how I'm gonna break the news, for now, its our little secret together. But I know he will be thrilled. Thrilled and slightly scared most likely, as I just lost my job. So now he probably feels like he needs to work extra hard for you. But we know you'll be worth it.
Your older brother is one year old today, actually 12 and a half months. He is a little bundle of joy and has the sweetest disposition -- I know he'll make the best big brother you could possibly imagine. And all of us will smother you with kisses.
According to the pregnancy calendar, your expected due date is July 4, 2014. A real, American baby planning on arriving to a steady stream of fireworks no less! I'd expected as much from a second baby of mine ;) Unfortunately this means we are stuck in Houston during the hottest months of the year... Fortunately, we might make it to Chicago in late summer for some relief and you'll be plenty big enough to enjoy an exotic vacation with us come the winter holidays this year.
Anyway, I am still soaking this all in, since I literally just learned of you 5 minutes ago. Just wanted to write down some thoughts, as I vow to continue to shower my baby #2 with attention as well.
And finally, I'm guessing GIRL. I could be wrong, and either way will be thrilled. I would LOVE for Henry to have a brother to play with, and I myself would love another son. Having one opened my heart up more than I could have imagined so i could only imagine how having another one would enlarge it even more. That said, I'll naturally be pleased with a daughter. Finally a girl in the family, I and your grandma and grandpa might say! Either way, I love you already and forever.
Love,
Mama
Ok baby #2. I think you're starting to brew. We've been wanting you for a while now and I was worried you would take longer than I preferred. Funny... I was expecting you to come last month, or the month before and was absolutely convinced that you could not come this month... Alas, you have a mind of your own already and surprised your own mama.
Your daddy is in NYC right now, but he will be home tonight. I'm not sure yet how I'm gonna break the news, for now, its our little secret together. But I know he will be thrilled. Thrilled and slightly scared most likely, as I just lost my job. So now he probably feels like he needs to work extra hard for you. But we know you'll be worth it.
Your older brother is one year old today, actually 12 and a half months. He is a little bundle of joy and has the sweetest disposition -- I know he'll make the best big brother you could possibly imagine. And all of us will smother you with kisses.
According to the pregnancy calendar, your expected due date is July 4, 2014. A real, American baby planning on arriving to a steady stream of fireworks no less! I'd expected as much from a second baby of mine ;) Unfortunately this means we are stuck in Houston during the hottest months of the year... Fortunately, we might make it to Chicago in late summer for some relief and you'll be plenty big enough to enjoy an exotic vacation with us come the winter holidays this year.
Anyway, I am still soaking this all in, since I literally just learned of you 5 minutes ago. Just wanted to write down some thoughts, as I vow to continue to shower my baby #2 with attention as well.
And finally, I'm guessing GIRL. I could be wrong, and either way will be thrilled. I would LOVE for Henry to have a brother to play with, and I myself would love another son. Having one opened my heart up more than I could have imagined so i could only imagine how having another one would enlarge it even more. That said, I'll naturally be pleased with a daughter. Finally a girl in the family, I and your grandma and grandpa might say! Either way, I love you already and forever.
Love,
Mama
Sunday, December 15, 2013
Happy 2 Months!
I thought I would be one of those mothers who document every "new" activity. However, what I didn't realize is that with a little one, coupled with breastfeeding, I have NO time to do anything optional. Any downtime the past few weeks (meaning Hank's nap time) has been used paying bills, insurance analysis, Christmas shopping, naptime of my own, etc.
However, there was a marked change in little Hank this past week, and it made my heart melt and break that I wasn't documenting it all. So from now on I will make an effort to post more updates.
A lot of friends told me that things change around 6 weeks. Indeed, I saw Hank becoming more alert, cooing more, able to lift his head better. However at about 8 weeks - he became a little person. He was doing all of the stuff I mentioned ALL the time, not just in snippets. His little voice is so sweet and lately he seems to be talking all the time. Amongst the cute singsongsy coos, he also grunts a lot of beefy man grunts. I wonder if girls do the same? He also now really SEES me, daddy, and his mobile toys. He makes eye contact and smiles and laughs when you talk back to him. Its simply heart melting. The past two months have been worth it!
Maybe one of the best developments for this tired mama, is that his latch/breastfeeding has become much more effective. The first month or two, I literally fed him for over an hour every two hours. However, as of a week or so, he is only nursing 15-30 minutes and can go atleast 2.5/3 hours now as well. Woo hoo, party time! Also, in the past, the only things that would calm him down were burping, farting, feeding and sleeping. However, now he usually just wants to be held. He can last a long time without being fussy if you just hold him and walk around with him. He is interested in the world!
However, there was a marked change in little Hank this past week, and it made my heart melt and break that I wasn't documenting it all. So from now on I will make an effort to post more updates.
A lot of friends told me that things change around 6 weeks. Indeed, I saw Hank becoming more alert, cooing more, able to lift his head better. However at about 8 weeks - he became a little person. He was doing all of the stuff I mentioned ALL the time, not just in snippets. His little voice is so sweet and lately he seems to be talking all the time. Amongst the cute singsongsy coos, he also grunts a lot of beefy man grunts. I wonder if girls do the same? He also now really SEES me, daddy, and his mobile toys. He makes eye contact and smiles and laughs when you talk back to him. Its simply heart melting. The past two months have been worth it!
Maybe one of the best developments for this tired mama, is that his latch/breastfeeding has become much more effective. The first month or two, I literally fed him for over an hour every two hours. However, as of a week or so, he is only nursing 15-30 minutes and can go atleast 2.5/3 hours now as well. Woo hoo, party time! Also, in the past, the only things that would calm him down were burping, farting, feeding and sleeping. However, now he usually just wants to be held. He can last a long time without being fussy if you just hold him and walk around with him. He is interested in the world!
Friday, November 15, 2013
Happy One Month, My Dear Son!
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Thursday, October 17, 2013
Happy Birthday My Dear Son!
Our son arrived yesterday into this world with a high-five at 1:56 p.m., weighing 7 lbs 4 oz, measuring 20 inches long.
My water broke (literally a gush of water like in the movies) soon after I woke up from sleeping in until 9:15am. He csme into this world just about five hours later. It was my first day of maternity leave and I was planning on spending it reading all the workbooks we received from our baby classes, laying at our pool, lunching with friends, and getting a Mani/pedi. Henry had other plans.
Hubbt and I are so in love and happy with our little pumpkin. More to come.
Sunday, October 13, 2013
Decreased Fetal Movement
Baby Mac has taken after his parents in one aspect throughout most of the pregnancy: he can't sit still. He is always moving around, kicking, sucking is thumb, shaking his head -- which is very reassuring for me. Its the sign of a healthy baby. In the last few weeks of pregnancy however, the baby starts running out of room, and sometimes oxygen. Pregnant women are told to monitor these kicks more frequently and consistently. In my case, because my amniotic fluid has been consistently low and because of our two vessel cord, my doctor has stressed that should I feel any decreased fetal movement, or any sort of change in pattern of his movements, that I should notify her immediately.
So yesterday, after a good 10 hours of not feeling ANY movement, I knew it was time to give her a call. I did everything she told me to do beforehand: drank gallons of cold juice, ate, changed positions and laid in a dark room on my side waiting to feel and monitor kicks -- all to no avail. I finally called worried, and she asked me to come to the hospital, again, to get the stress test done. And so that's how my hubby and I spent our last Saturday night without baby, back at the hospital. You win baby Mac, you are the boss.
After an hour or so of monitoring, it turned out baby Mac was just as healthy as ever, but that since my fluid is lower, its possibly I am not feeling the kicks as much. Its still not low enough to deliver though, so we are hoping he hangs in tight and stays in utero until Friday - his scheduled C Section date.
On a positive note, since we were only in the hospital a couple of hours, we were able to salvage part of last weekend night together, and managed to go to dinner and a movie after the hospital, Captain Phillips (which was excellent). We figured if we are going to hire a sitter, we'd rather go out somewhere with friends, so most likely it would be a while since we saw a movie in the theaters after the baby comes.
So it begins, our last week child-free. It is seriously terrifying. I am savoring every last minute of sleep I get, every moment of silence I have, and every movement of freedom I feel. D-Day is fast approaching.
So yesterday, after a good 10 hours of not feeling ANY movement, I knew it was time to give her a call. I did everything she told me to do beforehand: drank gallons of cold juice, ate, changed positions and laid in a dark room on my side waiting to feel and monitor kicks -- all to no avail. I finally called worried, and she asked me to come to the hospital, again, to get the stress test done. And so that's how my hubby and I spent our last Saturday night without baby, back at the hospital. You win baby Mac, you are the boss.
After an hour or so of monitoring, it turned out baby Mac was just as healthy as ever, but that since my fluid is lower, its possibly I am not feeling the kicks as much. Its still not low enough to deliver though, so we are hoping he hangs in tight and stays in utero until Friday - his scheduled C Section date.
On a positive note, since we were only in the hospital a couple of hours, we were able to salvage part of last weekend night together, and managed to go to dinner and a movie after the hospital, Captain Phillips (which was excellent). We figured if we are going to hire a sitter, we'd rather go out somewhere with friends, so most likely it would be a while since we saw a movie in the theaters after the baby comes.
So it begins, our last week child-free. It is seriously terrifying. I am savoring every last minute of sleep I get, every moment of silence I have, and every movement of freedom I feel. D-Day is fast approaching.
Friday, October 11, 2013
FINAL Pre-Natal Appointment!
One more week until my scheduled cesarean section. Never thought I'd have that - a scheduled cesarean. I'd been preparing myself with books, videos and classes for a vaginal delivery since the beginning. But at this point, I get it, the BABY is the boss. He is already ruling this mama. And that's okay. I am finding peace with it. There ARE benefits.
Just got back from my 38.5 week appointment, and of course he is still breech. But more exciting is that I am 80% effaced and 1.5cm dilated! His bum is down, and the nurse said she felt it when she examined me. Anyway, this means my body is working and preparing for delivery, which is exciting. There is a chance I'll go into labor on my own before the cesarean, but I do hope he waits - I'm a bit of a planner and would like to see this well organized Baby Mac. Work with me here and wait until Oct 18th :)
Just got back from my 38.5 week appointment, and of course he is still breech. But more exciting is that I am 80% effaced and 1.5cm dilated! His bum is down, and the nurse said she felt it when she examined me. Anyway, this means my body is working and preparing for delivery, which is exciting. There is a chance I'll go into labor on my own before the cesarean, but I do hope he waits - I'm a bit of a planner and would like to see this well organized Baby Mac. Work with me here and wait until Oct 18th :)
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